hmm.....

in the midst of exams now....bored to death...

have u ever wondered y did we ever created sth known as exams?...i always do. mebbe its bcos my life is sooo full of them that i have never passed thru one year without having any exams at all. mebbe it'll change next year, provided i pass and graduate this term, its scaaary, but there's alwayz that feeling lurking around that i'll have to resit (touch wood, hope it wont happen).

BUT....life doesn't sound too good after exams as well. there'll be plenty of sleepless nights,and getting picked on by everyone, and i mean everyone who is higher in rank. sometimes, i wonder, why we put ourselves thru all this torture. guess as human beings, we jes love torturing ourselves (sounds so sado-machism), but from that "torture" we also find accomplisment and the true joy of succeeding in the things we set out to do. unfortunately, sometimes it works the other way round in which what we are doing may not be what we want to torture ourselves with in the first place. things change, so do human's emotions and desires. it molds around the experiences and the ideals that we hold true to our believes. but as we get more and more engrossed in seeking the answer to the original quest, we lose out on what we really wanted in the inside as we grow along the way, and that is jes too sad.

oh well, jes another rambling before i head back to the books......which i shall do so .....NOW>..
till the next time